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Lovers first love yourself
Writing: Xu Mengtian"People, born in hope." Once upon a time, in a paper novel book, I have read such a sentence, thatAt the time, I dropped out of school (mental illness) due to illness, and even more ironic is other peers who are already full of fighting spirit and prepare for the middle school entrance examination.
Reminate the past, in the elementary school career, almost every year is among the best in the year. In the eyesI ca n’t pick out a little shortcomings. For the parents of other students, I am a "child of someone else."No one expected that I would suffer from mental illness later!
A good child who is missing
I still remember, I will wait at the endIn the hours of school, my stomach fell into the sea and had severe pain. It was unclear for the reason. At that time, I guess it was because I was unwilling to go to dinner because of my long-term autism, which caused , until I went to study at the evening, I suddenly felt sweaty, panic, and shook , and finally, I fainted.
When I woke up, I was lying on the hospital bed in the hospital, and it was a mental hospital. Although my mother accompanied me next to the sick bed, I did not feel easy because of this.I came down, but I felt very scared.So I told my mother that I was afraid of this place, and I wanted to go home, and I wanted to go back to school.When my mother heard nothing, she hugged me with tears and said to me, "Sorry for the child, the mother should not force you to read before."
It turned out that that day IAfter fainting, my mother came to the school in a hurry to pick me up, and sent me to our local county -level hospital. Strangely, after a doctors examination, I didnt find any problems with my body. Instead, my bodyEverything is healthy.
In the end, the doctor concluded that I was caused by psychiatric disease .I went to school for a break, but after I went to school, the sarcasm of the students and the indifferent face of the teachers made my mother understand how much sin I had suffered in school.As the students said to her mother: "She is like a dumb in school, it is just an autistic patient."
In the end, my mother gave up to let me continue reading.Thinking, I just let me treat my illness with peace of mind in the hospital. I know that my mother was all of my illness, all of which were attributed to myself.Perhaps, in my mothers opinion, her persecution made me do not know what the meaning of reading, which made me lose the motivation to move forward, but in fact, the arrival of mental illness has something to do with many factors except for introverted personality.
As the saying goes: "If you have no sense of direction, you will only fly higher and fierce."Confused roads may make this person stagnate.Sometimes, in the face of my mothers blame, I am always ashamed, because I understand that the reason for dropping out of school is not that she watched her daughter into a feminine "with heart to plant flowers", but because of my degradation.
I have been a girl who does not like to speak in the person from an early age. When others are playing outside, I do homework at home alone.At that time, I will be troubled because I do n’t worry about the problem. In my opinion, reading is more meaningful than playing.Of course, this day does not last for a few years, as "you have to play more with others" as you often fill the ears; "You are so introverted, it is useless to read more books."In the future, it will not be able to integrate the society.Going out and playing, I persuaded me to change my introverted personality more and more.So from that time, my attention was not studying, but I wanted to change myself. In my opinion, as long as the personality changes, my life becomes perfect.
"The pursuit of perfect results is often a greater shortage." After I was in junior high school, I was appointed by the teacher because of the first place in the admission test, but this honorIt was canceled for a long time, because my academic performance declined.
Yes, in the school, I tried to pretend to be cheerful, just to be less alternative, slowly, I finally have a few friends, but I take more moreWhat you have to eat today, where to skip class tomorrow!My degeneration finally caused me to be counterattacked by my life. My friends parents regarded me as a bad child and made them not allowed to deal with me.That is, from that time, I panicked and slowly understood that I should not force perfection.However, it was too late to understand. Since then, I have no friends, and my academic performance has been thousands of years.
To be honest, in many cases, people do not understand that "the gap can only be followed by the sun". If you think too much, you will not do anything.As the so -called "one thing,", the past experience made me no longer persistently rehabilitation when facing mental illness.
turning point
You know yourself better, and there is no one who cares about yourself more than yourself.I will be blunt irony, I hope you can correct it, but more often, your "obsession is not realized" is likely to turn the shortcomings into an advantage.
drop out of school, admitted treatment, and discharged. In these three life process, I think a lot, and I also decided to re -explore the ocean of knowledge.Slowly, in the continuous reading, I fell in love with writing. I insisted on learning for more than three hours a day.
"Maybe I was born sensitive and suspicious, only suitable for quiet learning." I often think that if I could ignore the words and condemnation of others, would I do it more than thatgood.However, there is no way to walk in the world, every step is count.Later, in the questioning of someone elses writing, I was able to keep calm and silent and sober.
A pushed door
As we all know, writing this pieceFor an ordinary person, it is not easy to make a lot of money to make a lot of money. I was like this at the beginning. An article is 0.5 yuan, but my sincere hobby makes me stick to it. Every timeI will feel very excited when I get a manuscript fee.During this period, I was opposed by my parents and several relatives. They believed that I had mental illness and should not think more about it, but to rest.I do n’t know what other mental patients feel the dense handwriting in the book. Whether it will be anxious, I only know that when I am studying, I feel very happy.
Once, one of my distant relatives came to my home as a guest, because I was very unfamiliar, so I have been studying, rarely and and.She spoke, she was naturally unhappy. After two days, she left. Before leaving, she also satirized to my mother: "What daughter did you raise? Su. "After she left, my mother didnt say anything, and I didnt complain about anything.
"Suck with tears and running with pain is the real life." To be honest, when I was diagnosed with mental illness, I also fantasized that I was normalPeople, but over time, I understand: I cant always be deadlocked with mental illness.I cant live well before I recover."
Although in the years of writing, my mental condition often repeatedly seizures, tension, dizziness, hallucinations, and hallucinationsI believe that as long as people have a belief, they can endure adversity. As long as people have a dream, they can overcome all difficulties.> I believe that in the hearts of many patients with mental illness, nothing should be more important than returning to normal.For example, what is the so -called normal, is it the ups and downs of no joy and sorrow?I personally think that it is not, These do not mean the so -called normal, but representing them what they want.> It is true that from small to large, whether in school or at home, our teachers and parents will educate us to answer the questions in the book. In mathematics, our math teachers will teach us a lot to give us a lotFormulating formulas will naturally pass to us a kind of thought: in this world, every question needs to be answered, and there are answers., So there is no need to solve it, so there is no answer in itself."35sp188a"> "Do you know?Many times we are anxious to find happiness, and we do n’t know that the big rocks that cannot be moved in front of us can be dark and beautiful."This sentence is what I have met a group of writing groups I have met in the past few years. I still remember that at that time I participated in a essay competition, won the third prize, and won the bonus in the essay contest..
Afterwards, I shared the article into a writing group, and added a attachment by the way: "My mental illness story."Wenyous writing level in the group is very good, and give me the disadvantages of the article. One of the advice of a Wenyou made me last:" Your writing idea is a bit problematic, you just write about writing, you just write about writing. You just write about writing.The pain of mental illness, but rarely wrote how he defeated mental illness.If you make a little modification, maybe the ranking will be higher."After listening, I poured the top instantly, not feeling the article, but feeling the mental illness:" Yeah! "Blindly obsessed with suffering, people will only become more and more depressed, and if they can bypass the so -called problems and face their own hearts, or maybe those disturbing and those pain in life, they will be puzzled. The door we desperately wanted to pull away was actually pushed away."
In the years of illness, I see through the hearts of people, even if there is such a saying in medicine:" Psychiatric people need more care."But in fact, many people get out of the trap of the sick demon. Most of the time, they climbed out of ourselves, and they are all saving ourselves. So, as a mental patient, what are the reasons?What do you do n’t love yourself? Do you know that human nature is cruel and ruthless. Only ourselves are our best confidant.Strive to welcome the future, and then live a good life with a strong heart that can accept failure. Dont waste time in unnecessary things, and dont blame the heavens. The most important thing in life is not to be a normal person, but even if it is abnormal., It can also emit unique wonderful.p>
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